I don't know how common this is, but for me, the main problem is that I feel
disconnected from everyone and everything.

There are a few people out there who I care about, or who care about me, but no real
intimacy with anyone. The worst part is that this is a long term pattern with me, it's been going on
for time that it's quite possible I will be alone for the rest of my life.

I would like to have friends I could be truly close to, someone that I could be in love
with, but I'm psychologically fucked up enough that I don't know how to make this
happen.

I like to think that if I had love and intimacy in my life, life wouldn't suck nearly as much.

Is there any way to have meaning in your life when you're disconnected from everyone?
I don't think so.